oh hello summer, where'd you come from

Summer time is here..

Today, I started an internship and I am so excited about it.  I will be spending my summer at Yokefellow, learning the ropes course.  If you are unfamiliar with what Yokefellow is similar to what you might know as Cooperative Christian Ministries. I feel that this new major, Human and Community Service, is the major that is fit for me.

Six semesters into college, and now I figure out what I want to do.  It has taken me this long.... started with an elementary education major, then a communication major, back to an elementary ed major and now human and community service.  Why, yes they are all similar but just a bit different.  I have found myself sitting and pondering about why it has taken me until the second half of my Junior year to figure out what I want to do...but then again if we all knew exactly where we were really going from day one.. we would be bored.

I always thought that I would be a elementary school teacher, but there is a different plan for me.  And I will tell you this, after today it confirmed to me even more that in a school is not where I am supposed to be.  I feel in my home today, working here and there and everywhere.  Doing things that I had no clue at first, and now I am  learning it all. This is what I am supposed to be doing, this is the path I am to be walking.  While I know that I have much more to learn and that I may come across moments of frustration, I will be learning and growing.

God has a plan for each of us.  Most of us have no clue where that path is going or what that plan is.  Most of us also try constantly to figure it out and make a schedule to how we are going to do it.  But what we don't realize is that God is the only one that knows the plan and path and knows how we are going to get there and in what time range.  HE is the one that controls it, no matter how hard we try to do it ourselves. By know means am I saying this is easy... I know I struggle at letting God lead and allowing myself to follow him.  I want to be in full control about what is going on at all times and unfortuntly I can't do that.

This summer is going to be full of learning experiences, growing moments, frustrating times, moments of wanting to give in, and so much more. BUT it will be giving me an experience that I would never have if I don't just go with the flow.

Dear God, I am so thankful for everything that you have given me.  You know that I have trouble letting you lead.  Please help me remember that you are the one that is truly in control and that I need to follow where you lead.  Lord, you are amazing. Amen.