Step by step

The leaves are changing, the weather is cooling and the moon rises earlier.. it is my favorite time of the year.  Fall brings happiness and well of course my birthday, but better yet, I find Fall a time of reflecting, remembering, growing, and learning.  As I sit down now to throw my thoughts at the screen and relax, I am blown away that I am actually blogging.  Writing is not something that comes easy to me, but this is something I really enjoy.  I have now sat here and read back through many of my previous blogs and I have to brag a bit, by saying.. some were actually amazing to me. Everything that I feel like writing about today, must truly be part of me.. because each topic I have written about before. 

In life sometimes the path is not straight, it does not have walls with arrows showing us the direction.  Life does not have that little flashing "u-turn" like in the game of Mario-cart.  Life is full of challenges, falls, valleys, mountain highs, ah-has.  It is full of lessons learned, and mistakes taking place.  Life is full of pain, suffering, smiling, love, passion, struggle, and happiness.  Life is precious, so we shouldn't try to live someone else's life. Life is full.. but no matter what we are all individual humans walking our own unique path. 

Thinking back over the course of the last year, a lot has changed.  This time last year, I was studying hard for the Reading Praxis I and taking education class.  I had completely finished my school of edu application but was waiting on the score I needed.  At that point in my life, I would have never expected to be where I am now. At the end of Christmas break the score came back and it was points away from what I needed.  After many phone calls and conversation, I re-worked my schedule.  I was part time at LR and part time at CCC&TI.  I had spent my Christmas vacation working hard on studying and now was going to take remediation/developmental classes at the Community College. While studying there I made full effort to make sure my life outside was not exposed, and the same at LR.  I felt slightly ashamed/saddened by what I was having to do.  I learned so much in those classes.  And now as I am back into gear with a full time semester at LR, I can tell how much I learned. My grammar in these blogs are NOT a good representation... because to be honest, I am not paying attention. Sometimes in order to move forward on a path, you have to take some steps backwards.